zanny.xo♥'s Polyvore

fuzzy socks, warm sweaters, hot coco, and the mistletoe I'm not going to be kissed under. ♥

I have now idea how I feel about you.
all I know is...I think about you. a lot.

do you have that one person, that no matter what, you always find yourself going back to? not even in a relationship, they just always find their way back into your thoughts, and into your heart.
even if you stop having feelings for them for months at a time, maybe you'll even find someone to replace them for a little while.
and no matter how much you will yourself to stop thinking about them, it eventually ends up coming back to them.
 
for me, that's you.
you're written over every page in my journal. you're sprawled across every blog I've ever had.
you mattered so much to me.
there's obviously a reason I had such strong feelings for you for those 3 and a half years.
and now, as much as I'm trying not to let it, they're back. I don't know why.
how could I let this ruin our friendship? I've worked so hard to get this far. and now, me and my stupid head's going to ruin it all.
why? why did I even like you so much in the first place? I don't even know where it started.
all I know is that I can't get you out of my head.
and I'm sorry for lying to you...did I ruin the chance I had? what if you were falling for me too until I denied it?
or did I do the right thing? is our friendship more important?
 
I'm confused, and I hate this.
why can't you just like me back?
or better yet, why can't I just not have feelings for you at all?

maybe I'm just dreaming out loud, but until then
come home, come home
cause I've been waiting for you
for so long, for so long ♥

good morning loneliness comes around
when I'm not dreaming about you ♥

slow down you crazy child,
you're so ambitious for a juvenile.
but then if you're so smart,
tell my why are you still so afraid?
what's the fire, what's the hurry about?
you better cool it off before you burn it out.
you've got so much to do
and only so many hours in a day.
 
but you know when the truth is told,
that you can get what you want or you can just get old.
you're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
 
when will you realize;
vienna waits for you.♥
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favourite song ever ^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-firf2Awqyk

but you didn't have to cut me off
make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
and I don't even need your love
but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
 
now you're just somebody that I used to know
 
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the calm after the storm.
and I'm fine now,
but don't you go pretending that we were nothing.

so you're gone and I'm haunted
and I bet you are just fine
did I make it that easy to walk
right in and out of my life?
 
goodbye, my almost lover
goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
why can't you just let me be?
 
so long, my luckless romance
my back is turned on you
should've known you'd bring me heartache
almost lovers always do
 
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well I'll state something rash
he had the most amazing...smile

gonna hold ya,
gonna kiss you in my arms.
gonna take ya,
away from harm.
♥